My heart started to race as I walked towards my home...I
opened the door and saw my mother sitting on sofa, “Hey mumma” I said with a
smile and began to walk to my room, “Sana had called me as you weren't receiving her call” mumma
said, “Oh, will call her later” I replied...
Mumma: She said that your class got over at 12 o’clock...
‘And why did she have to say that?’ I thought...
Mumma: Where were you?...
Me: In the library, studying...
Mumma: You can study here too right? You have got all the
books over here...
Me: It’s some research I am doing on...
Mumma: You can surf on the internet...
That’s what I don’t like, the internet, sometimes I wish if
it did not exist at all...
Me: I get distracted using it, so I sit in library and
try to focus...
Mumma: So shall I disconnect the Wi-Fi?...
Me: NOOO (screaming)...
I would be dead if Wi-Fi gets cancelled...
Me: Mumma listen, I only study there and do nothing, I need
to concentrate...
She walked away and I moved in my room...I know she feels bad
when I come late and stay away from home and make excuses to skip food...
Sitting in my room I connected my cell to Wi-Fi and checked
if I had received any texts from him...Seeing no notification of his name, I
kept my cell aside hoping to concentrate on my studies and took out my books to study, but I would
check my cell phone now and then to check if there were any texts, and finally I kept the cell phone facing me so that I don’t have to move from here to there to check my
mobile...And then it was time for dinner, I went down to help my mother in
serving the dishes...
Mumma: If you have any problem with me then tell me..
I felt bad thinking that she was thinking like that...
Me: No mumma, it’s nothing like that...
Mumma: Then what is it? When you were kid you used to run
back home and now you want to stay away...
‘What can I say to my mother? What my problem was? And why
was I running away?’ I thought...
Me: Studies get heavy and also the professors give heavy
assignments, it’s hard to handle and when I come home I feel so sleepy...
Mumma: Who told you to take up such studies? Household work
is so easy; you will be having no tension...
I giggled and so did she...
Done with dinner I went back to my room and checked my cell
again...And by that time I was getting mad...I could not remember his number
before, but now it is on my mind every time but I can’t call...I would type his number again and again and then erase
it...Lying on my bed I would read our previous conversation which I took
screenshots of, maybe I had a thought about we may not be talking in future...After
passing an hour and still nothing showing up in my mobile I started to cry...’I
am going to call him’ I said, ‘No, don’t’ my mind would reply, ‘I am calling
him’ I said, ‘Control meshal’ my mind would reply...My heart was quiet because
it had lost the fight, my heart which would give me hope that everything will
be fine, finally had given up...
It was midnight but not a single text was received, my eyes
as well as mobile battery dried and head became heavy, but still I waited
hoping that he might appear any time...And finally my eyes closed...
The next day as soon as I got up, I checked my cell to see
if there was any text or call from him but it showed me blank...Leaving for the
college I told mother “I will try to come home soon” and she smiled...Coming
home wasn’t a problem but his memories that attack my mind when I sit alone
was...
-me$hal-
Finally trying to write something -_- (Sleepy)...
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