Standing near my study table I looked at my diary, wondering if I wanted to write anything?... ‘Why not about marriage?’ I thought, ‘Should I?’ I questioned myself, ‘Let’s write’ I thought pulling out the chair of my study table...
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Everyone were admiring me for the way I looked and hence took me to the mirror so that I can see myself...Dressed in a heavy skirt with a red veil on my head and maroon bangles in my hands, I smiled for everyone to believe that I too admired my look...My cousins wanted to apply some cosmetics on my face to which I refused telling that I am not used to it and that might make me uncomfortable...
Telling me to sit calmly, everyone went down to arrange things to welcome the groom...Having nothing to do, thinking nothing I took out my cell phone which was kept in the wardrobe and as a routine I went through it...Cell rang showing only a number, I saw some similar digits and picked up while my heart started to beat fast...I did not save his number because I didn't want to get caught...
Me: Hi...
He: Don’t do this meshal, I cannot live without you, you know I love you right?...
Me: I love you too...
Forgetting that it was my marriage I said it, do I regret it? No, I don’t, it was something I wanted to say him...May be even those words were also less to define my love for him...
He: Then don’t do right...
Me: I am sorry...
He: Baby...Babyyyy I love you...
Me: I love you too...
He: Don’t marry please, I will die, you know how much I love you right?...
Me: Hmm...
He was crying, I could hear him sobbing and when he cries I just want to hug him tight and wipe his tears...
He: You won’t marry right? Give me a promise...
Me: I am sorry, I can’t...
And he went on saying the same thing, I kept quiet to listen his voice closing my eyes, trying to feel him around me...We both were broken, I blamed myself for everything, my apologies were rejected, and why will it be accepted? When I ruined him by entering his life...
He: You won’t break your marriage right?...
Me: I am sorry, I can’t...
He: Yeah right, you girls are same, you girls can only break hearts...You girls use our hearts and throw it...
Me: No no it’s nothing like that, I really love you...
He: Stop lying...What you think? I don’t know you? You are such a fake person but what did I do to you to hurt me so much? I loved you from the core of my heart and you played with it?...
Me: No please...
He went on throwing his anger, insulting me and calling my feelings as fake...But as I knew that one has to die for the other to live, I quietly listened and accepted his each word so that he could live...
He: You are that one person I hate the most and will keep on hating for my rest of my life...
The call ended with these as his last words...
My heart was breaking and tears were falling non-stop, I locked the door so that nobody enters and see me in this condition...’I love you and I do’ I said sitting on the floor and biting the edge of the bed as to control my sobbing voice...’I love you stupid’ I said again with a whispering voice and closed my mouth with both the hands...’Why did you receive the call? Meshal?’ my inner me questioned, ‘Why wouldn’t I? I have waited to hear from him or see him or his text since the time we broke up and you are asking me why?’ I replied...’I am sorry, I am sorry, I should have not confessed, else all this wouldn’t have happened, I am sorry’ I said imagining him...
Some sounds interrupted me, I took a pause and went near the window and saw the groom has arrived...'What shall I do? Should I say my parents that I am not ready? Or don’t want to marry? Or love someone else? Or shall I run?’ Questions started to arise in my mind, ‘Stop meshal, just stop’ my inner me said ‘hold on meshal, I know you never wanted to marry, but there is no taking back, you are risking your parents respect by doing this, stay calm’ continued my inner me, ‘I am ruining people's lives’ I said, ‘He will be fine meshal’ said my inner me, ‘I truly love only him and I can never love anyone else’ I said, ‘I know’ my inner me replied...
My body was shivering, I knew people will call me downstairs now, so I went to pray before leaving the room...Every bride prays for her future and her family but I prayed for him, to keep him safe and happy, for him to get someone much more better and best than me, for him to have the best and happy life, for him to forget me...
Before leaving, I doubted whether my face seemed fine or somebody may doubt it, so I applied few cosmetics on my face to hide my shattered face and then I saw his picture which was in my mails...I kissed it once telling ‘You were the best I had’ and kept my cell phone back at its place and went down...I smiled, I blushed, did whatever was possible from my side only to hide my pain and neither did I cry while leaving because may be I will not be able to control it...
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“Another story?” asked my husband, “Just thought to write something” I replied...
Husband: Your stories aren’t real right?...
Me: Nooo not at all, it’s only imaginations...
Husband: It looks realistic sometime...
I laughed...
Me: Don’t worry, there is nothing like that, I simply write, reading others stories or reading some status haha...
Husband: Hehe alright...
Me: Yeah, don’t think anything like that he next time okay?...
Husband: Yes ma'am...
I smiled, he smiled and he left...
I took out my cell phone and opened my privacy keeping application and clicked on that one picture in that application...Rubbing my thumb on his picture I said ‘Hope you are doing fine and are happy’...
-me$hal-
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Everyone were admiring me for the way I looked and hence took me to the mirror so that I can see myself...Dressed in a heavy skirt with a red veil on my head and maroon bangles in my hands, I smiled for everyone to believe that I too admired my look...My cousins wanted to apply some cosmetics on my face to which I refused telling that I am not used to it and that might make me uncomfortable...
Telling me to sit calmly, everyone went down to arrange things to welcome the groom...Having nothing to do, thinking nothing I took out my cell phone which was kept in the wardrobe and as a routine I went through it...Cell rang showing only a number, I saw some similar digits and picked up while my heart started to beat fast...I did not save his number because I didn't want to get caught...
Me: Hi...
He: Don’t do this meshal, I cannot live without you, you know I love you right?...
Me: I love you too...
Forgetting that it was my marriage I said it, do I regret it? No, I don’t, it was something I wanted to say him...May be even those words were also less to define my love for him...
He: Then don’t do right...
Me: I am sorry...
He: Baby...Babyyyy I love you...
Me: I love you too...
He: Don’t marry please, I will die, you know how much I love you right?...
Me: Hmm...
He was crying, I could hear him sobbing and when he cries I just want to hug him tight and wipe his tears...
He: You won’t marry right? Give me a promise...
Me: I am sorry, I can’t...
And he went on saying the same thing, I kept quiet to listen his voice closing my eyes, trying to feel him around me...We both were broken, I blamed myself for everything, my apologies were rejected, and why will it be accepted? When I ruined him by entering his life...
He: You won’t break your marriage right?...
Me: I am sorry, I can’t...
He: Yeah right, you girls are same, you girls can only break hearts...You girls use our hearts and throw it...
Me: No no it’s nothing like that, I really love you...
He: Stop lying...What you think? I don’t know you? You are such a fake person but what did I do to you to hurt me so much? I loved you from the core of my heart and you played with it?...
Me: No please...
He went on throwing his anger, insulting me and calling my feelings as fake...But as I knew that one has to die for the other to live, I quietly listened and accepted his each word so that he could live...
He: You are that one person I hate the most and will keep on hating for my rest of my life...
The call ended with these as his last words...
My heart was breaking and tears were falling non-stop, I locked the door so that nobody enters and see me in this condition...’I love you and I do’ I said sitting on the floor and biting the edge of the bed as to control my sobbing voice...’I love you stupid’ I said again with a whispering voice and closed my mouth with both the hands...’Why did you receive the call? Meshal?’ my inner me questioned, ‘Why wouldn’t I? I have waited to hear from him or see him or his text since the time we broke up and you are asking me why?’ I replied...’I am sorry, I am sorry, I should have not confessed, else all this wouldn’t have happened, I am sorry’ I said imagining him...
Some sounds interrupted me, I took a pause and went near the window and saw the groom has arrived...'What shall I do? Should I say my parents that I am not ready? Or don’t want to marry? Or love someone else? Or shall I run?’ Questions started to arise in my mind, ‘Stop meshal, just stop’ my inner me said ‘hold on meshal, I know you never wanted to marry, but there is no taking back, you are risking your parents respect by doing this, stay calm’ continued my inner me, ‘I am ruining people's lives’ I said, ‘He will be fine meshal’ said my inner me, ‘I truly love only him and I can never love anyone else’ I said, ‘I know’ my inner me replied...
My body was shivering, I knew people will call me downstairs now, so I went to pray before leaving the room...Every bride prays for her future and her family but I prayed for him, to keep him safe and happy, for him to get someone much more better and best than me, for him to have the best and happy life, for him to forget me...
Before leaving, I doubted whether my face seemed fine or somebody may doubt it, so I applied few cosmetics on my face to hide my shattered face and then I saw his picture which was in my mails...I kissed it once telling ‘You were the best I had’ and kept my cell phone back at its place and went down...I smiled, I blushed, did whatever was possible from my side only to hide my pain and neither did I cry while leaving because may be I will not be able to control it...
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“Another story?” asked my husband, “Just thought to write something” I replied...
Husband: Your stories aren’t real right?...
Me: Nooo not at all, it’s only imaginations...
Husband: It looks realistic sometime...
I laughed...
Me: Don’t worry, there is nothing like that, I simply write, reading others stories or reading some status haha...
Husband: Hehe alright...
Me: Yeah, don’t think anything like that he next time okay?...
Husband: Yes ma'am...
I smiled, he smiled and he left...
I took out my cell phone and opened my privacy keeping application and clicked on that one picture in that application...Rubbing my thumb on his picture I said ‘Hope you are doing fine and are happy’...
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If you had shed a tear drop then do say me because I had shed a lot 🙈 from past 3 weeks thinking about this story :P... Do Comment if you like it :) and do share the link :)...Thank you, stayblessed :)...
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